Yours truly ,♥
Heartbeats ♥
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28 November 2010
; no waiting .
Do you know the feeling when you love more than one guy ? Its like you are confuse with your own feelings ? Hmm :/ I've started loving someone from May until now . I had faced all those challenges just because Im in love with him . I've rejected a few guys just to prove to everyone that all i want is him not any other guys . Although i may like any other guys , i always told myself not to . Because if i love someone , i should just face all the ups and downs . And never give up . I didnt chose the one that always sent me home , always msg me , always asked me what im doing , have i eaten and etc . I didnt chose the one that brings me out to have lunch and spend time together but instead , I chose the one that seldom msg me , seldom in contact with me , someone that have so many close girl friends , someone that dnt even bother to spend time with me . On that moment , I started to fall in love with the guy that always entertained me but one day , he left me because he thought that im in love with other guys . He didnt gave me a chance to explain . And since my love towards the seldom entertain me guy was still strong and deep , i continued loving him . and forget abt the other guy . But he always hurt my feelings without him knowing . Hmm . He went out with so many girls . Although they are friends , im still jealous :/ One by one , people kept telling me that they had developed feelings towards me . But I didnt even told them that I love them too . I just entertained them like normal friends . And now , it have been like 5-6 months . And people kept telling me , no point for me to wait for something that wont happened . Guys should be the one waiting for the girls . Not the girl waits for the guy . Means whaat ? All this while , is it just a waste for me to be so faithful towards what i said ? Yaaa , i knw . I had promised him that I wont accept any guys . But after what he wrote on his wall , tells me what ? He so in love him that girl . So , whats the point i should love him while he didnt even bother abt me ? I do have feelings . Last few days , I started to develop feelings towards this guy . He is much much far more diff than the one that i love alot . But somehow somewhat , i felt guilty . Cause of what i said . So , is it wrong for me to love someone else ? Hmmms :/ I dnt knw ! Im so confuse ! I've like loving someone for so long ! Even my friends said that they never saw me like that before . Haish . What should i do ? My feelings towards that guy had fade away ! But deep inside , the is still a place for him . But I started to love someone else ! But we havent knw each other that well . Hmm . If he didnt even bother abt me , why shld i ? Wth ?! I hate my feelings :/ Hmm . I love that guy more but he .. hmms . grrrr . okeh , wtvr lah . I dnt want do anything . I wanna enjoy my life ! :D There are a few guys that im referring to . But if you dnt knw me that well , you wont knw who im talking abt . Or mayb you wont understand (: